Run and gun

2010 mid week of February and I enjoyed both months. 22 years old and counting. I’ll have the best time of my life hopefully in 3 months. A decision now should be made. Where are the countless offers? Show me the money. I am not late because of the compromise. Not again, I am not doing anything at all so early in the morning. What will my choices be? How far can I reach the stars? Can I even have the opportunity to see it from a birds’ eye view. The reason why I am serving this fine young lady is because I just want her to know how special she could be. I believe in God’s fate. Sometimes there is magic. Random is the perfect word right now. Love has its own boundaries but as you share everything with that person its as if there are no limitations in this world. I hate a girl who comes back because her guy broke up with her. I have to design and search some ideas. It’s been 98 days and I can’t even think of what’s next. Right now, I am nervous but I am not scared to do things with perspective. Sometimes when you interact with people you realize the world has so much to offer. They have different sets of paradigm. I never had the support of my family because I never proved a thing o r two. All I want to hear are praises because confidence comes in and gives me the joy within. Keep the fire burning. There is not enough space to argue or to dwell on the past. It’s so small that you will realize that not everyone fits each one’s capacity. We are made by God’s image and likeness. Don’t judge so that you won’t be judge. It’s complicated. I want to read the newspaper now. I am learning more than doing more. God taught me to be compassionate and be eager for each and every single day that he has given me. Why do I know things that are about greatness but how ironic all I experience now is mediocrity? Do I have to work harder and not to think of it that much? Why do I resort to things as long as there is the benefit of the doubt that gives me a sense of “ok lang? I imagine the change in the world will happen in a snap. Don’t think too much of someone that compares you to others. You are on your own. Survival of the fittest is a law. It’s me first before them thinking. I must understand that people of different races tries to fit in. They are not even beautiful at all. Spell beautiful. It’s good that people judge accordingly. It’s so hard to earn money these days. I earn a measly allowance for one’s craving of food. I just want to make Dona Loreta Razon proud of everything I do. The clock did not even bother to move. Where is the opportunity that I am longing for since I am in highschool. Why do I hear nonsense ideas right now? Michael Jordan aspires mo to be great. I want to be like Mike. Dad spoils me but I am not a brat. A sport is Hercules valor. I prefer talking to low-key profile persons because they think that we are not approachable. But for me they are the symbol of Philippines someone who laughs in a day without anything to eat on the table. Do we have to make a stand even though no one is ready to support. Money comes first before labor. I saw A C again and imagine some douche bag is accompanying her. Where do we question ourselves? Is it a different market? I never imagined having the perfect girl that will satisfy my everyday fancy. Moral fiber is somewhat I have to build up. Will I do things with perspective? I am driven to achieve my goals. I am still dreaming big. I want to make a difference. I want to end poverty. “ Panata ko tapusin ang kahirap. Kung ayaw ko makatulong babalik nalang ako sa pagiging negosyante” If it’s a parliament system then Gibo Teodoro will win. If it’s a democratic system then the target market will be class C people, apathetic ones. I wonder what is in store for me. Age should not be a determining factor for one’s professional capability. I dream to have a mini cooper and to have part time businesses with prominent Chinese clan. I want to make my lola smile before she will reach a million years in her life. She’s so basic and forward. No need to explain things. She just needs to look at it. It is easier said than done. She inspires me to be the best yet simple in whatever I do.  Again, I want to have a sandwich layered with lettuces, tomatoes, salmons, everything healthy and eating it on top of the Cairo Egypt pyramid. I want to have business meetings in Puerto Rico, Beverly Hills Calif. Paris, Miami South Beach and definitely backpacking in Europe. I will never end saying this unless there are a lot of pictures already. Owl city concert what to do now. I need free passes. Vanilla twilight. You mean to say Manny Pacquiao is wooing her every single day in 3 months.

 

Feb 26

Last day of February in the office, the feeling of what the hell did I do? Haha. Damn, is it because there are lot of stupid questions running on my mind right now. Shit. What did I enter again? How can I prejudge if again, I am being paranoid right now writing in front of my computer. Do I feel anything every time I pick her up then how do I feel every time I bring her home? Dating 101. haha. My life is changing again in a snap. The hell I am not doing anything at all. I am not arguing. Why does it take to be an adult to find fucking glory these days. Fine! Patience again! I learned, I know. It happened in college.

Step by step. Haha. Where will I ponder myself? Reasons for adversity will not bring me down. Maudlin – over sentimental