March 4’10. 4th day with a silly small talk last night. If the person does not come up with additional questions then she has nothing interest with you. 25 days is coming near. I have decided. Conversation is the crossroad of an individual’s personality, intelligence and spirituality, how they say it and what they say becomes important, as the relationship grows mature. If she likes you then she is inclined to say more of what the two of you are talking about not just a simple “yes” or “no”. I am not pushing myself for a graceful exit. Fine, I will not think more about it, as the days would pass by. All I can say is when enough is enough then we have to move on. At 1:49pm, I am not even designing. I can’t even use my brain right now. Though I feel sleepy. I barely function. I finally thought of this the moment my first 3 months came. Strengthen and encourage me pushing through and presenting myself for the remaining months I can bid farewell. I have drawn interest to Y & R. I am crossing my fingers as soon as I hit the free agent market in the coming May or June. I desire for the things that gives fulfillment and an alternative price for all my disappointment throughout my whole career. I never pushed myself to the limit. Mind over matter confuses me to do things my own way. Why do I keep on weighing things? Do I find it to be safe most of the time or am I really scared to reach my own potential. I have to let go of the past and move on for the present. Stop worrying about what will happen just let things happen for what is bound to happen. Don’t conclude. Decisions do come but you have to lay down all the cards before reaching that point. Are you quitting as soon as now? My mind is relieved from all the emotions that I am saying. I just want to shout for joy and sing my praises. “The future depends on what we do in the present, Mahatma Gandhi said, “Work spares us from three evils; boredom, vice and need. Even the week says
W T F.. What the fuck! Haha.
March 9, 2010
The date goes by 6 months like a regular employee. From there, if I will be a regularized, I will be very happy. The pressure and tensions doubles up. Honestly, not even a glimpse of what I see can really make a motivation out of it. After all, I am not going to say permanent but it is not a thing it’s a human being after all. An emotion that reacts how it feels. Thank God he gave me another blessing and I will not take it for granted. Look at the resume’, the stats’ and the attitude’ I will be every guy’s envy. From an interior point view its not about taste its about big time decision making. I will live the day 1 step but with every priority I know that will make me stronger and better. I hope I will not hurt anyone along the way. The process can be a mixture of pains and joys but the learning is irreplaceable. You are always young in life there is no such thing as old because life is short you can never do things forever. Why do people treat each other according to age? I believe one’s maturity cannot be determined by age but through the capacity that one can contribute and accomplish for the task given at hand. End this negativity now and turn it into everything positively. In waiting, there is a learning of patience. You thought of thinks beyond your imagination and there is the hunger for achieving it. I am riddled right now, where my situation is. Is it just a matter of give and take and end it that way. I know there are a lot of reasons for me to experience things my way. I need to stop worrying what will transpire for tom. I am cutting my list down to two. Hopefully, it will be a toss up between kapuso and Mega publishing. I deserve to be in the crowd. It is in my blood. It is looking for it. I need to search for that elusive price. Pacquiao is about to fight in three days. It is overwhelming every time I read the articles. He came from humble beginnings and worked his way up there. Is it true that if you really worked hard for something then you can achieve what is impossible? Relating to the politics here in the Philippines all the presidentiable candidates spend tireless times of delivering speeches, entertaining guests and patronizing the masses. I believe if they are working hard to be able to make a stand for our country and serve as the leader for our prosperity then they can accomplish what the Filipino nation wants from them. Who doesn’t want a good life for their family or for themselves? Life is very beautiful in every facet. It’s very hard to pass up. Real friends come up’ when your life is so FUCKED up’. Two months from now, elections is about weather Philippines. In this time of the year everyone is glued to all types of media to update us for every occurring important moments of this day.
Hangout is what can I say for now rather than dating? I really miss her day by day. Please stop nightmares make it more of a dream. I really need the goddamn picture. If it is the last thing I can get in this world =) =]
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