Restart / Reprogram

A decision has been made. The battle is over but the war is about to begin. Still, taking it one day at a time. I am excited and worried. Another monkey is about to be born and carried off my back. I love the pressure it keeps my sanity intact. I love the challenge. It will reshape me again. I am happy but not contented. I need to train harder like a wild beast. I must not think and rethink. I need to deliver. No more point shaving. No more ladies to think off. Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus. Women tend to disappoint. Don’t put your best foot forward all the time. Be a gentleman. There is a big difference from doing and not doing at all. I always need to believe in myself but I have to do things no matter how stressful it can be. I must be a disciplinarian of my own body. If I cannot even manage to control it then my parting shot to success will always go back to zero. I have my lola and parents. Though they are not perfect, they constantly remind me to keep on improving myself creating your own life. I realized when you reach early 20’s to keep yourself grounded and to feel secure is when you talk and pray to God. There are reasons to fight for something. Constantly asking what is it the worth of sacrifice. I take things accordingly I know my limitations but I want to exceed beyond borders. Things are about to change its phase. I love every single moment. 6 month before was different but 6 months after was just the same. I need to keep on reminding myself that there are way to heavy loads carrying other’s people shoulders to think of for my own that I cannot do it. I know it is frustrating when I tend just to satisfy myself knowing a certain achievement. I must focus and concentrate. I can do it. I need to believe more. No more words to listen but actions that have to be done. Do I want to be a coach, owner or a mere player?